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Denji ([personal profile] digestate) wrote in [community profile] windfall2023-09-23 05:22 pm

what i desire most, what i fear most



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[personal profile] lifesapping 2023-12-08 12:38 am (UTC)(link)
Whose fault is the suffering?

[There's no outward reaction to being called selfish, no huff or glower or flinch of his wings (well, aside from before that when Denji kind of misaligns a few feathers with the sawing motion of the brush). He probably is a version of jealous. But that's mostly due to not having much of a choice in the matter.]

Devils only exist because humans are afraid of things. If there was no fear and humans could only enjoy the lives they have, then none of us would have to exist. Everyone could live in peace.

[On both sides - but that's not going to happen any time soon.]

But humans can't enjoy the peace they could have, hence where things stand. It's like a divine sacrament, to suffer and be afraid.

[...He pauses. Considers who he's talking to.]

Then again, someone as happy-go-lucky as you wouldn't be so happy if you didn't have devils to kill to impress a woman like Makima...
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2023-12-11 04:41 am (UTC)(link)
[He really is the sort who can find happiness even in the worst situations. It's a little sickening, in a way. But it also explains Makima's dealings with him. A simple guy is easy to order around.]

[Angel pulls his wings in, shrinking them back down to their usual size as the feathers fold in while he stretches his arms up. Nature or nurture, huh. For someone like him, only one answer makes sense.]

Of course it's nature. Because I'm a devil, first and foremost, and an angel second.

[Aki is patting his hands dry on his pants as he heads over, having given them time to hog the front of the doorway while they chatted and brushed like this is some kind of sleepover, but he's getting tired. Angel gets to his feet and stretches his whole body, joints in his back cracking as he does. Aki asks, "Are you two done? It's time to go to bed." And Angel nods. Looks behind himself, down at some of the feathers that dropped onto Denji from before.]

Thanks. [But he's not picking those up, instead walking back into the bedroom to figure out how they're sleeping. Aki tells Denji to go and get his bed, but he doesn't seem as annoyed as he was before with both of them in there. More like he's come to accept it.]
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[personal profile] damngun 2023-12-13 07:19 pm (UTC)(link)

[Aki watches Denji slowly scoot around him, unsure what the motion means or what his plan is here, but it seems like neither of them are planning on picking up the feathers and he knows they're going to clog the vacuum. He squats down to begin picking them up, scooping them up in handfuls, but then comes Denji rushing right through the door with his bed and whizzing past him, sending them all up into the air in a flutter. Aki leans back to dodge out of the way, then groans when he looks into the room. Angel is sitting on the end of his bed, staring down at Denji, who has commandeered the most floor space. This room is barely big enough for one person, let alone three.]

The neighbors are seriously going to kill you, one of these days... [The feathers successfully gathered, he tosses them into the bin in the corner of his room, passing Angel a look next. Where, exactly, does he plan to sleep?]

[But Angel seems to understand the question, answering simply, "I'll find a spot. This bed is too soft, anyway." Which... fine, he trusts him to at least not kill him (or himself) in the middle of the night, so Aki passes him and sits by his pillow, carefully stepping over Denji's bed in the process.]

Do you still snore...? [He only heard it once, after they had that huge feast and all slept in the living room. But he was drunk that time and could ignore it. Power was way worse, anyway. It's going to be so annoying if he needs to get up in the middle of the night... At least Angel has a nightlight, which casts a dim glow in the room when he reaches over and shuts out the lamp.] Whatever, just try and keep it down tonight.

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[personal profile] lifesapping 2023-12-15 08:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[Aki gives Denji an odd look at his suggestion and it only fades a little when he rephrases it. Angel's expression doesn't change as he stares down at him, eyes moving over the base of the futon, like a cat debating getting up.]

I'd be pretty upset if you kicked me. [He might get a groan or something. Wouldn't that he awful? But Angel climbs to the edge of the bed and slides down onto the end of the mattress, brushing his hand over the top of it up test how firm it is. It seems to pass his muster, and Aki tosses a blanket down from the bed to him and he pulls it over himself, his wings stretched out toward Denji in a sort of shield, but it looks more like a pile of pillows than anything.]

[Aki stares down at them both for a moment, a sort of frown on his face, but he doesn't say anything about it. Just lays down on his back with a sigh. Says a single Night and stares up at the ceiling. Sleeping with other people in his room feels so strange.]
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[personal profile] damngun 2023-12-17 12:29 am (UTC)(link)

[It's a quiet night, until Denji starts to snore. Aki sleeps through most of it and he'd probably sleep through all of it if something else didn't wake him up first. He blinks up at the ceiling blearily and doesn't quite know what he's looking at for a moment, if he's still asleep or not. But when he comes to enough to recognize what's happening, Denji lets out a nosehair-curling snore and Aki shifts, leaning over and nudging him. He's hitting his leg, he realizes. He must have rolled and turned a full 180 degrees...]

Denji. [He's whispering, because you're supposed to, and also because his throat feels like cotton. Maybe he did drink too much. Again he shakes his leg from where he leans off the bed.] Denji. Look.

[Because right now, above them, Angel is putting on a light show. Not consciously, judging by how he lays still with his head over his arms, but his halo is glowing and pulsing in a way that reflects off the ceiling in a nearly blue wave. And wave, indeed. The way the light shifts, the ceiling almost looks like the ocean with an island in the center, where the hole of his halo is. The light ebbs and flows against the center and out from the ring, mimicking a constant roll of waves.]

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[personal profile] lifesapping 2023-12-18 04:39 am (UTC)(link)
[Aki disagrees that it's like a mood ring since Angel is pretty clearly conked out, though he sits up slightly as if to confirm he's actually still asleep. It's thanks to that movement that Denji gets away with blowing on him without Aki stopping him, as he's too far away to yank him back and hiss some kind of warning about how Denji needs to stop touching him all willy-nilly - but when he blows against the ring of light Angel lets out a low groan, rolling onto his back with his eyes squinted, the blue glow slowly fading back into its usual neutral color. He blinks his eyes open and stares up at Denji. Tired, exhausted, and hair wild as if he just went through a wind tunnel.]

What're you doing... Did you open a window? [He grabs the edge of the blanket that's gotten tangled in his legs and pulls it over himself, squeezing his eyes shut.] I was dreaming good, you ruined it.

["He blew on you," Aki tells him, though clear from his tone he really didn't expect a blow on the part of his body he's always assumed isn't really... capable of feeling would make him wake up.]
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2023-12-19 05:45 am (UTC)(link)
[Hat? What hat? Angel stares up at him blearily, the sight of him so close and right over him decidedly unwelcome. He pulls the blanket up further, all the way up to his nose. Like he can hide from his annoyance.]

I can't control it like that. It does what it wants to do. [From where he sits on the bed, Aki's brows knit tight at that. Because what the hell does that mean.] I was having a nice dream. No one was bothering me. It was nice. And then you woke me up.

[He doesn't expand on the idea that he can't control his own halo, so Aki finally speaks up, asking, "What do you mean, you can't control it?" Angel lowers his eyes to look at him, visibly annoyed.]

Can you control when you fart or poop? [He rolls over onto his side, away from them both. No matter which way he turns, though, his halo stays put over top of his head, parallel to the floor.] Don't be silly. I'm not battery-operated... Just think of it like snoring.
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2023-12-24 08:24 am (UTC)(link)
[He's still going... He rolled over and made it obvious he planned to go back to sleep and Denji is still going. Angel sighs loudly.]

It's not my skin. And of course I can feel things that happen to it. It's part of me.

[He glances over his shoulder and shoots Aki a look, almost like he's asking for help but it comes off more annoyed that he isn't doing anything about it. For his part, however, Aki seems privately interested in the questions Denji is asking, since they're things he never knew. Or thought about, but still.]

...Can't you feel if something happened to your chainsaws? But they're not made of your skin. It's like that.
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2023-12-27 04:59 am (UTC)(link)
[Clobber himself... Is that what Denji calls what he does to himself? He's heard about it from Aki a few times, usually because Aki is clearly concerned with his chosen method of clearing an attack like that, but Angel doesn't really get it. He just grows back with blood anyway, right? What does it matter? But maybe it does have lasting effects if he's asking to get touchy-feely with his halo.]

...You can touch it. [He almost sounds a little hesitant to admit this, but it's true. Only his skin is a danger to humans.] It's like my wings.

[Aki finally speaks up, sounding a little agitated. "You two should go back to sleep." But Angel has pushed himself up, staring at Denji warily. Like he's expecting the worst, because he kind of is.]
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-01-05 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
[It feels good. Weirdly good. Extremely good, similar to when he brushed right over his scapulars and right by his skin. Close without contact, a solid beam of light that's connected to every part of him. Both himself and his partner. He can feel every poke, every prod, every stroke. Is his face growing red, or is it just the way the light is getting a little dimmer? Making his toes curl as a tingle runs up his spine.]

[Then Denji's teeth are around it and Angel yowls like an alley cat, his knee coming up abruptly to kick Denji while his other foot skids against the blankets on the floor to send him away from him. He reaches up to grab his halo as if he needs to check for a piece missing, a chunk taken out - if it's still there and didn't ditch him for Denji's mouth.]

[Aki's the one who actually speaks, however, moving at the same time as Angel's howl and grabbing Denji by the back of his shirt, snapping his name and dragging him away. "Don't bite him!" And a shake to make sure he gets it before looking across at Angel - where he's seated with both hands clasped around his halo, mouth drawn tight and teeth grit, his face as bright as if Denji just touched his most private area. "Are you - okay?"]

You're - awful. [...He's kind of staring at both of them, though, so Aki looks vaguely offended for a moment.]
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-01-06 06:45 am (UTC)(link)
[Aki has never been on the receiving end of a look so vicious from the least vicious devil in all of Public Safety but being on the edge of it as he gives it to Denji is enough to rattle him a little. With the way he's holding onto the ring of light, Angel's face looks a little darker than usual, especially in the dark bedroom.]

It doesn't have blood - it can't bleed. [This is like saying a ripped shirt not bleeding is no cause for alarm. Totally different mechanisms for harm. Aki groans quietly at Denji's attempts to cajole them into calming down, frustration obvious. He knew this was a mistake, to let Angel stay over, to let Denji sleep in his room...]

[Angel gets to his feet, finally letting go of his halo as he glowers across at the bedroom door.] I'm not sleeping near him. He's going to try and eat me while I sleep.
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[personal profile] damngun 2024-01-06 06:45 am (UTC)(link)

He's not going to eat you.

[Aki reaches to grab Denji by the arm and hoists him up, pushing him to sit down on the bed.]

Here - He can sleep up here, instead. That way I'll feel if he gets up and tries to mess with you. Alright?

[Angel glances back over, still frowning, but looks to see if Denji will accept this condition. If he'll sleep in the same bed as another guy.]

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[personal profile] damngun 2024-01-06 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)

[Angel doesn't respond to him, still staring at the door to the bedroom as Denji climbs into bed and claims he doesn't eat people. What Angel doesn't call him on is that he's eaten devils, and that's what Angel is. But he wouldn't expect him to understand the difference, let alone understand how his halo is no different to the blood running through his veins that he's fed Denji to bring him back. None of that reasoning feels worth it. Humans don't think about devils like that - half-devil or not, themselves.]

Just lay down. [Aki coaxes him quietly, moving around briefly to straighten the blankets on the ground as Angel finally turns toward him, some sort of resignation in his features as he squats to lay down again. Aki lifts the blankets for him and drops them over him when he lays down, then sits on his own bed and looks down at him. Thinks about saying something, then decides not to. "I don't think your halo looks like an onion ring." Yeah, he probably wouldn't want to hear that.]

[And Denji might be a teenager and he might be skinnier than most his age, but he's still an awkward sleeping partner. Aki sleeps fitfully thanks to that, eyes opening suddenly if he moves or turns in bed as he lays still on his side, facing away from him and, by necessity, toward where Angel lays on the floor, fast asleep and with the normal glow of his halo. Whatever he must have been dreaming about must be gone now. At least it didn't start turning red or something creepy.]

[When his alarm goes off, he's already awake and sits up to shut it off. It's a work day, which is part of the reason he's a little annoyed they pulled this shit, but whatever, it just means Angel will actually be on time today. He reaches over to nudge Denji first. Get him out of the room and going before these two can bicker again.]

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