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Denji ([personal profile] digestate) wrote in [community profile] windfall2023-09-23 05:22 pm

what i desire most, what i fear most



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lifesapping: (geroi)

[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-03-04 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
[Again Angel's instincts act and he begins to step away when Denji moves in close, grabbing his tie in a rush and too quickly for him to avoid. Once he understands what he's doing he allows it, arms hanging by his side as he watches him undo the knot, then gives him a brief but uncertain stare when he tells him to turn around.]

[In truth, he was going to cheat. He was going to let Denji blindfold himself and then take his own off and pretend he'd left it on. But now, he doesn't have much of a choice. He stands still with his back to him, waiting for him to loop the tie over his eyes, but the way he starts brushing at his unkempt hair and curling it all behind his ears is such an unnatural and strange feeling that he almost bolts at just that. His brain keeps shouting at him to move, to stop him, and he has to actively stand in place when his fingers go over his cheeks to place the tie over his eyes and then knot it in place behind his head. Unable to see the knotwork, he can only assume he's done when he raises a hand to touch the edge of the tie, turning around to face where he assumes Denji is - but he's about 30 degrees off-center, facing his left side rather than his face.]

And what are you going to use? ...Are you going to cheat? [The realization hits him as he reaches to lift the tie slightly, aiming to give him a look. How this went from him thinking he was going to only pretend to play to now being irked at the idea he might cheat is anyone's guess.]
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-03-05 06:26 am (UTC)(link)
[It's clear what his intention is, but immediately Angel reacts with a swipe of his arms, slapping at Denji to get off as he groans a disagreeable noise. He'd allowed him to readjust the blindfold without fight and he certainly didn't push him away like this while undoing his tie, so obviously this is different.]

Not like that - That hurts. Don't yank on them...

[His wings, that is, the scapulae getting tugged hard by his motion when he knows Denji needs to lift up, not down. For an alleged genius, he really doesn't understand the most simple of things. Angel pulls the jacket off properly, letting his arm slide out on the left side and pulling his wing through the sewn slit open in the back before repeating with his right side, careful but practiced, something he's done hundreds of times. Though it's always felt unnatural, like something he doesn't need to wear, he doesn't really have other choices. No one lets him go around shirtless, nor does he have much of a desire to when it gets so cold here in Tokyo. On a day like today, however, when it's warm and sunny... Being shirtless wouldn't be so bad.]

[But he would definitely be a much larger risk with the added surface area of life-sucking skin exposed to be touched. So maybe it's for the best he just wears his uniform even on days off.]

Here. Don't mess it up, or rip it, or anything... [And he holds it out to him, still blind and not minding at all that he looks rumpled and messy with his hair sticking up around the tie, unironed shirt no longer tucked in, and perpetual frown on his face. An ideal opponent for blind slay-a-devil.]
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-03-07 05:41 am (UTC)(link)
[The pause as Denji stares at him isn't noticed, Angel under the assumption that Denji must be blindfolding himself. He reaches around vaguely while he does, trying to find the front of the machine, but then Denji grabs him by the wrist and positions him correctly, allowing him to find the mallet next. Really, a mallet... He doesn't think something like this is the right thing to teach children how to kill devils. First of all, do kids even have access to mallets?]

Alright, alright... [Denji sounds so eager about this, like he actually wants this to be a competition. Angel can't figure out why he cares so much, enough to ensure it's "fair" by blinding the two of them. Even without a blindfold, he still knows the timing and pattern of the little dolls, so can't he just follow along?]

[But when the countdown finishes and the machine commands them to slay dem devils, Angel swats his mallet down and hits a flat machine. He can hear the sound of the puppet popping up above him and reasons it will be below that spot the next time, so he swings towards that area next and hits a flat machine again. Frowning, he attempts to keep predicting where the devil will show up but all in all hits maybe five out of the twenty or so targets. Around him, he can hear some of the others humans wondering what's going on, if this is some kind of game show, but then where are the cameras? When the music finally ends and the voice from the machine says, "Too bad, Player Two! Player One Wins!" Angel finally reaches up to push the tie off his eyes, frowning up at his score before looking at Denji's. He doesn't know which one of them was which player - was he machine number one or two...?]
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-03-08 06:43 am (UTC)(link)
[...What, he actually won?]

[Angel looks down at the mallet in his hand, then down at the five tickets that spill out of the machine when Denji points. Doesn't seem like that many, but he replaces the hammer where it belongs and tugs the tickets out, looking them over once he tugs the tie down around his neck, not bothering to undo the knot Denji made and instead simply letting the two long lengths fall in front of him as he stares at the little text on each stub.]

...Oh, I see. Each one of these... [He kind of trails off, now raising his head to look where Denji is pointing at the row of prizes - stuffed animals, some kind of plastic sword, buckets of candy, and other little knick knacks. As he takes in the sheer array of prizes, his face draws a little tight, like he doesn't believe him.] ...Gets you one of those?

[But that doesn't seem right. The economy would collapse under that. Still, there's a sense of brief hope as he thinks that maybe this is why Denji likes this place so much.]

Like... that? [And he points at the largest item, an oversized animal thing sitting on top of the shelf behind the guy at the counter, nearly twice the size of Angel, but he sees it probably the same time Denji does - the little sign that says that prize costs a million tickets. All the other options are much more affordable, but Angel's demeanor sinks, disappointment covering him.] What, I could have gotten a million points if you'd have let me do it with my eyes...
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-03-12 04:51 am (UTC)(link)
[Huh. Is this some kind of animal he's never heard of before? Angel wasn't actually too interested in the stuffed toy itself, more in shock with the idea of the economy being in such shambles, but he looks at the strip of tickets in his hand, running his thumb over each one to count. Five. That's still way too few tickets. All the big stuff is well in the hundreds.]

So it really is just like the economy outside... [And what would he, a devil with no paycheck and no access to the news, know about that? He approaches the counter where the smaller items are listed for sale in the display case. Tiny things, stuff that would probably break in a few uses, but things nonetheless. He squats down to look at the lowest shelf, finally pointing at the stack of blind boxes way in the back. Each one is marked for five tickets.]

What are those? [He was too far away when Denji was looking at Sonny Angel figures earlier, but blind boxes seem to fill the shelves here, too. And since Denji seems to know a lot about this place, he turns to look at him and ask,] What do they do?
lifesapping: (wish I was dying in 2 years)

[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-03-15 03:53 am (UTC)(link)
[Angel tilts his head to the side as Denji attempts to read out the name of the little figure.] You can't read that, Chainsaw-kun? [Not that he's insulting him, or sounds at all judgmental. He's just surprised.] It says "Smiski." It sounds like something from the west.

[...Why he knows that, or can read the Latin characters well enough to pronounce it properly, is anyone's guess. Certainly not his own. And while he passes a look at a few of the others, notably the one Denji points out that Power likes, he passes them all over with a shrug. He doesn't really get the point of them, but he does know he'd be annoyed if Power stole something of his, so he's not about to get one she likes. And he's ready to decide on the strange little glowing man when one lonesome box near the back catches his eye and he reaches out to pick it up, humming in surprise.] This one has mice.

[He turns it over, looking at each little possible outcome, tilting it this way and that like he can suss out what's inside. He had no idea so many little figures like this existed, and for such little purpose. Denji said they're just to place somewhere and have stare at you...? Seems like an odd thing to own.]

Looks like a city mouse, though, huh...

[Ahh, Denji probably doesn't know what that story is. He pulls himself to his feet, putting the box on the counter as the man behind it notices them - and what Angel is - at long last, shock snapping into his expression as Angel sets the tickets beside the box. The guy kind of nods at him, clearly not expecting a devil to abide by the rules of an arcade economy, and accepts the tickets. Angel works at straightening up his clothes at long last, looking over at Denji and holding his hand out.] Jacket.
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-03-16 05:26 am (UTC)(link)
[What he should have done was take it from his shoulders, tug it off without a second thought. There's no danger in that motion, only touching fabric, grabbing ahold of the edges of the sleeves and pulling it over Denji's head to take it in turn. And even though he does know now, that there is no danger in this, when Denji instead only reaches out and puts his hand on his, like a dog who has learned the command to shake, Angel flinches. His fingers curl up as if to present a wall, to pull back out of the way. But the response is so unexpected and strange and confusing that even the flinch is delayed and, by the time he pulls back, he also remembers - Right. Denji can touch him.]

[Letting his hand settle, he stares down at the connection, the hair on his neck standing on end. Both upset by the touch and wanting to grab it and keep it there, explore it.]

[Each time he touches him he can feel a little bit more. When he was grabbed by his hand, his fingers had wrapped around his wrist, tugging him along, the tips of his nails pressed into his skin. Flat against his palm, it had been similar in shape, matching, mirrored. He could see the difference in the length of their fingers, the width of their palms. Like this, opposite one another with palms pressed on fingers and fingers on palms, he can feel the weight of that palm and the way his fingertips feel against the edge of his wrist, the way the callouses gather right below each finger to create a rougher texture. Staring down at the union, how the lines on each knuckle create the shape of a circle, as unique as a fingerprint. Do all hands feel like this?]

...I asked for my jacket.

[His voice is a little quiet, the box in his other hand gripped tight. There's color in his face, but it's less from embarrassment and more from when your body is working overtime. In this case, actively processing something he doesn't know if he can ever get used to.]
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-03-18 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
[Angel follows Denji along, slipping his jacket back on carefully. He has to reach back to maneuver his wings into the slits cut for them but he's done it so many times that he can do it while walking. As they head down the street and Denji gives him his request not to run up the tab, Angel nods. Pliant with this request mostly because he never actually expected Denji to buy him anything, anyway.]

Power's the one who suggested this, you said...? [Spoken right before he opens the door and steps in. The staff look their way and, probably to someone like Beam, maybe Angel could be fooled into thinking this is a devil-run cafe or something, if such a thing even existed. Fear of vampires - sure. But he knows enough about human culture to understand a themed cafe and, with it, the quick realization that there's no way this place actually serves blood. So his brows only raise in surprise that it seems like Denji wasn't expecting this, his eyes moving to him as he stands a few steps back. For once, he kind of fits in, and they aren't at a church. How nice is that.]

Power's the one who suggested this, you said... [Repeated to make a point. Why go with anything she suggests, anyway.] Or are you a fan of this kind of thing, too?

[At least none of the staff seem to be giving him a second look. Maybe he blends in a little bit, somewhat? Interesting. Reaching down, he tries to take ahold of Denji's hand again, aiming to go to sit down at a table. He doesn't want Denji to chicken out of this.]
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-03-23 08:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[It takes a lot to make Angel fully uncomfortable in any situation. He sits down across from Denji on the table (though he obviously and visibly looks like he's expecting to sit down next to him before realizing there's no other seat... and why did he want to sit next to him, anyway?), watching the waiter (?) set down their menus and explain why the exterior looks like any other place on the streets of Tokyo, and even the silly way of talking doesn't really get to him. It kind of sounds like how Power wishes she sounded.]

They have places like that, too, I thought. With girls who give you food and stuff. [They hand out tissues but Angel has never attempted to take one. Mostly they seem to be trying to hand them to Aki, anyway.] They always smell really good, too. Like sugar or something baked.

[Looking down at the menu, he has to agree that everything looks pretty good, but he would probably say that no matter where they went. Denji told him not to get a lot, so he resorts to the usual method:] I'll get what you get. Hey, how come Power gets to go to places by herself? I heard she tried to run off with you.
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-03-25 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
[Places like the street where they hand out tissues? Angel is pretty sure anyone can go there and smell nice-smelling humans, though he supposes he also has a better nose than most humans, too. Not as good as Makima's, but it's up there.]

[But speaking of Makima, the mention of her seems to make something click for him, the realization that, of course, her presence must be enough to keep her in line. Not that Denji seems to understand, but he probably doesn't even think she's scary to begin with. And even though the brush of ankles is brief, he can feel every inch of it - the shape of Denji's malleolus, the shape of his own, and how they briefly overlap and bump. Two small mallets sliding over one another. He presses the toe of his shoe into the floor, wondering if Denji would be mad if he grabbed his leg and squeezed his ankle. He's always wondered what it feels like, disconnected from himself.]

[But something else catches his eye as Denji explains why Power comes back, and their attempt to flee, snapping him out of that thought process.] You stood up for her? [He watches one of the servers out of the corner of his eye who seems to have caught on to the fact that he's not a human in cosplay but isn't making a fuss, only whispering to her colleague about it.] Even though she saw you as less than her cat? I think even Makima'd be offended by that.
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-03-28 05:26 am (UTC)(link)
[...Probably true. Angel has never seen her interact with the cat for extended periods but the single morning he was there, he saw enough.]

[But when Denji gives an example of a situation where Angel might act similarly, selling someone else out to benefit his buddy - Aki - his face sours a little. Brows pinch inward, lips purse slightly. Nothing too heavy in terms of a change in reaction, not like he bit into a lemon again, but the change is there.]

I don't think I'd bother with anything like that.

[Why would he care, after all? It sounds like he'd get a day off.]

That human can take care of himself... I don't care one way or another what happens to him.

[So, in the end, he really doesn't get it. Is there anything he would value enough to do something like that? Probably not.]

Would you do that? If something happened to him.
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[personal profile] lifesapping 2024-04-12 02:06 am (UTC)(link)
[Angel wonders about that. Does he bring up Aki Hayakawa this much because it's one of the few people they have in common? Or does he actually depend on the man without realizing it? He doesn't know. Doesn't care, either, because suddenly there's food being placed in front of them, mirrored images of the same meal and his expression simmers into a look of satisfaction, like someone just fluffed his cushion. Yeah, this was definitely worth it.]

Mmm, not as much anymore... [He cuts into the pancakes with the side of his fork, sawing out a slice.] He used to order me around a lot, but he sort of laid off after awhile. [Some sort of truce was developed, based on how much Angel would tepidly argue with his demands. Instead of outright ordering him around, he'll just make suggestions or begin walking in some direction. Angel is more likely to follow along when that's the case. He pushes the bite into his mouth and feels the spongy cake melt on his tongue, syrup sweet and clinging slightly to the edge of his lips. Yeah, all human food really is incredible.] But I think you should do what he says, though. In your case.

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